Can it be done?
Can you really keep two parts of your life separate from each other?
My "online life" (as I've come to call it) is submissive.
Yet I pick a career where I have to direct 30 people to all do the same thing at the same time I ask. I cant show "weakness" (not that I think being submissive is weak, but I can imagine that in my job it would be seen as weak by the 30 people I have to co-ordinate) and must take control and be the leader....
Yes yes, I cause myself no-end of issues...
Maybe I was struggling so much because I was fighting part of my nature?
Now, when I go into work, I dont feel like myself. I feel like a different version of myself... the self I could be as a Domme if I wasnt so submissive.
If any of this makes any sense to anyone out there!
I think I just need some dirty sweaty BDSM sex......
~OH
I think dirty BDSM sex pretty much fixes everything. I too struggle keeping the dark part of me hidden from everyone in my real life.
ReplyDeleteWilliam
Lol, it would fix everything... if I had someone to have dirty BDSM sex WITH! I cant exactly tie myself up and whip my ass that beautiful hot, throbbing red all by myself...
ReplyDelete~OH
I would gladly help you with that if I could.
ReplyDeleteWilliam
I too do the same job as yoorself, as you know. My kinks are 24/7, hence I'm submissive 24/7 and it can be really difficult to separate this aspect of me from my work role.
ReplyDeleteOne minute I'm cracking a whip, the next I'm trying to squeeze in tasks and challenges set by Him to be fulfilled during my work day.
I prefer to call it compartmentalising.......it can be done, I do it every day. I think it justs get easier to do with time.
Hope you get some tres kinky sex soon.....it's terribly cleansing! ha ha!
DYx
William - You'll fill my head with naughty fantasies talking like that!
ReplyDeleteDY - I so envy you the ability to do that. I dont think I'd be able to mix the two... maybe when I'm not doing NQT and everyday feels like a never ending battle!
~OH