Anal Slut

I've always had a love-hate relationship with anal... well... I gotta tell ya... no longer!

I was talking to a friend/ ex fuck buddy and said as a joke/semi joke that I'd love to become an anal slut. We joked around about it for a while, then the conversation moved on and was forgotten... by me at least!

Went to visit him and some other friends over the weekend and my oh my!

To cut a long story short - we fucked.

And DAMN! He took my comment about becoming an anal slut to heart and I am so glad he did! I dont know if he realizes he's a Dom.. but he SO is! While spooning me, he was whispering in my ear about how hot my ass is and how he was going to fuck it like my pussy (and he's totally re-named my ass to pussy from now on) and that my cunt is only for breeding and to make sticky cum to rub onto my pussy.

I'm such a sucker for dirty talk. Not the crappy "I'm going to fuck you so hard"... but the mind-fuck dirty talk... I just slip into subspace so quickly.

So.. things are looking promising! He sent me a message today saying:
"Hows my pussy doing? I'll be seeing her on the weekend"

Woo to becoming an anal slut!

~OH

Its been a while, huh?
Or at least, it feels like it!!

Work has been pleasurably busy... and a roller coaster of emotions for me!
Yesterday was the pits ... not the worst ever, but it was pretty bad.

Tonight was just amazing. Imagine little 5"3' me instructing 43 (yes, 43!) people to all do the same work ... and it worked! A lot of these people are taller than me when they are sitting down... so I feel really good about myself right now.

In terms of kink... there hasnt been any (not really turning into a surprise though, huh?)

But right now, I dont care... things are going well at work which is one goal met!

~OH

When kink becomes Vanilla...

I was leaving a comment on DY's blog about the nature of needing the elusive "more" in sexual kinks... and a comment turned into an essay (or long ramble, depending on your view).. so, these are my thoughts on it.....

I think that over time, what is a kink can then become a BDSM version of vanilla (maybe vanilla with chocolate drips mixed in?).

I think this happens because that aspect of a kink has been done so much (especially when it feels new and interesting and addicting) which makes it loose its edge... not quiet as arousing as it once was ... so then its about looking for a kink ONTOP of a kink..

My example would be when I first started getting into BDSM.... I was a very "sweet and innocent" girl and was pretty shy about talking to people etc.

Hell, it took me a long time to get into masturbation (for a long time the idea of getting my fingers wet with my juice just... creeped me out, so I was rubbing myself though my panties... yes yes, silly I know... but I'm WAY over that issue now... infact the next best part of masturbation is being able to lick my fingers clean after!!!)

Anyhoo... I used to read a lot of sex stories online. All vanilla. Then one day it wasnt enough. So then I looked into the "Male Domination" stories section... and BOOM. Instant cunt-tingle, thigh wetting material. Then that started to get good.., but not enough anymore... then welcome OH's first introduction to becomin a pain loving whore... I looked into the pain/humiliation section.... BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM (that was a bomb going off in my panties by the way!)

Then reading wasnt enough... so I looked into R/P partners online... then online Doms... then real life Dom's.

So, through all this long and rambling post... I am reminded of a joke from Robin Williams about sexual kinks to stimulate old men.. Is this the way we will be going? 0.o

"Here's what you got to do. You put a sparkler in your ass. I'll set my pubic hair on fire. You put on a German army helmet, then jump off the couch yelling "fire in the hole". That might work."

Ah... a weekend

This week seems to have dragged by!

And next week is going to be crazy busy at work... I hate a two week timetable, especially when one of the weeks is harder than the other!

I'm hoping to get a lot done this weekend... and I'm seriously worrying about a friend that is not doing very well in life at the moment... AND to top it all off, I'll be meeting up with the someone I gave you a hint about... keep your fingers (but not your legs! ;)) crossed for me!

Hope everyone out there is having a good end of week/weekend! :)

~OH

"Within the sound of silence"

Not much to say really... hence the silence.

And I'm enjoying the silence really.... "hello darkness, my old friend"

Things feel better, even though I'm alone.... though I did meet someone in passing that I hope to see again!
Should I share information about it, and risk jinxing it, or should I be mean and keep you in the dark about him? "Hello darkness, my old friend"

~OH

Anger

I am so angry!

I am NOT a puppet master - I do NOT control the actions and behavior of others. How DARE they blame ME for THEIR mistakes?!?!

And I'm feeling pissed off even more because I'M the one that has to be a professional about it! Fuck 'em.

And now I need painful, growling, scratching, rough, angry sex to get it all out of my system.... but unless a Master kicks down my door and takes me... I'll have to revert to Yoga.... anti-climatic, or what?

~OH

Cold is horrible today and damnit need to be used. I don't think my fingers have strayed far from my cunt all morning. I have fantasied from the simple and sweet, to the vile and dirty.

I am gasping for pain. I've started biting my lower lip enough to make it bleed, while I'm pinching my pussy lips and scratching my inner thigh while slowly circling my clit until its hard and sensitive - sensitive enough to flick and scratch with my nail until have to sink my dildo inside my cunt and cum around it, squeezing and milking it like would a real cock.

.... Need a Master much?

Hope you all out there are having a pleasurable (;)) weekend!